As a young teenager, I was an avid volleyball player, had a solid group of friends that I enjoyed spending time with, and had big dreams for a bright and successful future; I’d graduate high school, go to college, have a great 9-5 job, get married, have a family … you know, the way you think everything is going to go, as a young teenager. I know what you’re thinking, “only in a perfect world does everything go that smoothly”, right?
Right. I found that out in the blink of an eye.
When my dad came in the house to ask if I wanted to ride over to a family friend’s house with him on the motorcycle, I jumped at the opportunity, as I was bored and didn’t have any plans for the day, anyway. We made it to our friends’ house, safe and sound, but it ended up that they weren’t home, so we headed home, taking a different way than we came, which is what changed everything.
I didn’t expect to be laying in a ditch at 10:30 AM on a Friday morning. Friday, July 6th, 2007 to be exact. The way my dad and I were taking home had a few curves in the road and when going around one of those curves, we hit loose gravel. My dad could feel the bike slipping on the loose gravel beneath us and instead of trying to keep driving to try to gain control, he decided driving into the ditch would be our best bet. After coming into consciousness, I was numb. Literally numb and unable to move anything except for my head. I heard my dad calling my name and when I looked over to see where he was, he was quite a ways away from me and all I could see was that he was struggling to get up and stand and his face covered in blood. It was seriously like something you’d see in a horror movie. Scary and, quite honestly, disgusting. I remember hearing car after car drive by us and thinking, “Don’t they see us or are people really that rude?”. Finally, a man was so kind enough to take time out of his busy day to stop and help us and call 911. To that man, thank you!
It seemed like it took a lifetime for the first responders to get to the accident scene, but when you’re laying in a ditch in fear, unable to move, and wondering what the hell is happening what else is to be expected? You just want help and some sort of comfort. When the first responders arrived, I remember the first words out of my mouth being, “Are my legs cut off?”. He replied with a comforting, but firm no. That was a relief. After safely getting loaded into the ambulance, the EMT’s hooked me up to a cord, or two and began tearing my clothes off. Every. Piece. Of. Clothing. I know now that removing my clothes was what they needed to do to ensure the very best care for me, but in that moment I felt like my dignity had been ripped from me. Laying in the ambulance on the stretcher, naked and having a really hard time breathing, while hearing the EMT’s words to me and each other blur together is hard to describe and probably has to be experienced to be fully understood, but it was silence and chaos at the same time.
The ambulance took me to St. Joseph’s Hospital in Marshfield, WI. Just a short distance from my hometown, Auburndale. I don’t remember much after we got to the hospital. The only thing I really remember is waking up, laying on my back with a bright light in my eyes. I believe my mom was there, in the room with me, and the rest of my family, including my younger sister, Brooke, and my grandparents were in the ER waiting room.
It was determined that my dad had some broken bones; tibia and fibia, collarbone, and a cheekbone, while I had sustained a C5/C6 spinal cord injury. I had no idea what a spinal cord injury meant at this point.
By 5:50 PM that day, I had been flown to Madison to and was in surgery. My dad was able to stay in Marshfield and had to have surgery on his broken leg bones.
My stay in Madison was spent in the PICU and is pretty much a blur to me, other than remembering a few out of many visitors, having to communicate with people by using a sheet of letters due to collapsed lungs because of pneumonia. They pointed at the letters, while I signaled if it was the right letter or not to spell out words and phrases, so I could get what I needed. I was put on a ventilator and told I may never breathe again on my own because of my lungs collapsing. I also remember a few nurses. My favorites ones, of course. After spending 41 days in their care, it’s as if you create your own little ‘hospital family’, if you will. I cried when it was time to leave Madison knowing I’d for sure miss my nurses there.
The next 40 days were spent in rehab at Froedert Hospital in Milwaukee. While this is mostly a blur, too, this is where I feel like it really hit me what had happened and what my life would be like from this point on, as not only me, but my mom, as well, were being taught how to adapt with the limited body function that I had and how I would live from a wheelchair through occupational and physical therapy. I’ve had to relearn how to do everything. This was a rough 40 days for me. While there were good days, there were also bad days and I was struggling inside. I felt many emotions; sadness, anger, frustration, “why me” … you get the picture. I tended to take that shit out on my PT’s and my OT. Mostly my OT (I’m so sorry, Toni! LOL) because she pushed me and I just wanted to give up. She knew I had what it took to learn this new way of life. Luckily, she was well seasoned in working with difficult patients and because of that she never threw in the towel like I would’ve easily done, then. My favorite part of this 40 day stay was at the end of the days, as I ate cookie dough ice cream while my mom read all of the new posts to me on the Care Pages page she had set up, so friends and family could keep up on my progress. The overflow of love and support certainly helped us get through.
After 81 days of allowing my body to stabilize and learning a new way to live life, I was finally discharged and able to go home, breathing on my own.
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